I wrote this song when my mom relapsed with alcohol abuse. It felt like the good moments had been a dream and I just woke up. It's the song I'm the proudest of. Acapella, harmonies. I poured all my pain into it. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lyrics: what if I'm right and we were a lie all along cause you knew my feelings but went and chose booze over it all - what if I'm worthy of the love that you neglected me when I was just a little kid cause you didn't have time for me - don't have the right to take away my potential, my mental state just because you couldn't keep control - oh I'm gonna be honest if history repeats itself I'm not sure I can help you I'm not equipped to deal with this - I don't know how I'll react when our past hits chapter 2 cause that would mean that everything we've been trough wasn't true - boy, I'm trying to slip my mind but it just keeps catching up with me and breathing is a have-to-do cause it's just getting heavier for me - choir: tired swimming against all the odds I'm drowning, it's never enough I'm thinking that the way I'm treating me is not good - oh I'm gonna be honest if history repeats itself I'm not sure I can help you I'm not equipped to deal with this - I don't know how I'll react when our past hits chapter 2 cause that would mean that everything we've been trough wasn't true - choir: true - swimming against all the odds I'm drowning, it's never enough I'm thinking that the way I'm treating me is not good at all - likely to be sinking down I try to turn it all around I'm facing a choice between my life or yours I'm going overboard - I'm gonna be honest if history repeats itself I'm not sure I can help you I'm not equipped to deal with this - I don't know how I'll react when our past hits chapter 2 cause that would mean that everything we've been trough wasn't truemore

This is a new song I'm working on. About being your own worst enemy.more

I wrote this song after I broke up with my boyfriend of almost 5 years after a case of IPSV. Just a little mistake that I can't erase I was forsaken, left unread Not an open book, boy I got you hooked At the taste of the tip of my mystery Keep me concealed And I promise I'll make up For all the times that you chained me down Have a good laugh at me and I promise you It's the last one that you'll experience Do you miss me now Swear I hear you crying in your sleep Bad decisions why But you never said it to my face Are you happy now Do the voices tell you otherwise One day I will die But you won't be the last I see Help me Don't leave your thoughts unsaid It's not up to me to guess Everything that you expect from me Even if I knew Let's be honest I would be submissive As long as it's right for me Be my victim, won't forgive you Figure out where we need to be It's not up to me to make it right Do you miss me now Swear I hear you crying in your sleep Bad decisions why But you never said it to my face Are you happy now Do the voices tell you otherwise One day I will die But you won't be the last I seemore