This song is about allowing yourself to love. I wrote it a long time ago, and now the wonderful singer Pauline Roeder has gifted me with her beautiful performance of "A Porta." Enjoy the mood, romantic atmosphere of this song and let me know what feelings it stirred in you. - Mastered by mixea.commore

You lit the fire But I won't burn for your sins... You wear your crown of rust like gold While pointing fingers, acting bold You build your heaven out of blame But every prayer you shout is lame I bled in silence, broke my spine For ghosts that never gave a sign Now I'm the storm beneath your lies And I won't bow, I won't comply Tired of walking through your flames Of swallowing your dirty shame You want a hero? Find someone else to crucify I am not a f*cking martyr Not your lamb, not your slaughter Take your chains and make a crown Wear it while your world burns down I am not your broken savior Not your mask, not your prayer Keep your guilt and fake affection— I rise from your rejection! You love to paint me black and white But I’m the grey you fear at night I took your pain and made it art But now I tear that frame apart You think regret is just a pose A stage you built with borrowed prose But I’m the scream you can’t contain A requiem of truth and pain 🎶 No more kneeling in your name I’m the fire you couldn’t tame You want redemption? Then burn for your own game I am not a f*cking martyr Not your goddamn holy starter You want blood? Then bleed alone— I’ve carved my fate into the stone I am not your fallen savior Not your cross, not your failure This is not a cry for grace— It’s war inside my face! You called me weak— While hiding behind saints and lies You called me lost— But I was the only one who fucking tried You built a kingdom On my pain and sacrifice But I won’t die for you twice... I am not a f*cking martyr Not your saint, not your charter I won't kneel, I won't drown You’ll see me rise when you go down I am not your beautiful failure I’m the end, I’m the savior This is not a sad goodbye— This is me choosing to survive! "I... survive..."more