This release is indicative of who I am, both as an autistic person, and as a perfectionist. For me, there is no balance between lacking momentum entirely and having an unhealthy obsession regarding any project. Much like many other autistics, I only ever over-commit (and for far too long, like with this song) — at least, as long as I can get over the executive dysfunction hump. Over four years, this song was abandoned countless times, almost always due to the result of burnout from the song itself, and pushing myself in other areas of life too far. The interesting thing is: from the start, this was intended to be a representation of the very push and pull I experience so frequently — lo and behold, the push and pull (or "dichotomy process") was ever present from start to finish of creating this track. I'm just happy I was able to overcome the perfectionism and get this out there.more