This one hurt. It hurts even thinking back on the state I was in writing and recording this, which is ironic, since I never got out of it. I just plateaued out, kept going until the next time I fell over an edge down further, broke and then plateaued again. I'm so far gone that light seems incomprehensible now. I used to be able to imagine what it's like not hurting, but now there's just nothing there. I thought I was getting better, I really did, but I realize now I just don't have the contrast of peace and happiness left in my life. The pain isn't letting up, it's just grated my senses down. The darkness isn't dark anymore, my eyes have gotten used to it, and what I see is slowly killing me.more

The song Hollywood is about my time living in the southern california city and dealing with performing with commercial and marketable for hire gigs, instead of following my passion and exploring the music I wanted to play. But we all gotta eat! This is the fourth city I lived in, and fourth track off my new album "Cities" (released a month early on Bandcamp).more

'Los!' (engl. 'Let's go!') is what my father says at the beginning – after he had decided to leave the hospital against medical advice, so at last he could die at home as he wished. You can download the song for free on my Bandcamp. Take care.more