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Still Here is a ‘response’ song about being in love with someone who won’t commit to you, yet still deciding to hold out for hope in the name of love. Flat out: I wrote this song as a response to an ex-boyfriend who expressed uncertainty about wanting me in his life in the capacity I had been. This was a human that I loved deeply and unequivocally, so for him to request time away from me, in addition to communicating doubts he had been experiencing—it was a huge blow to my heart. I couldn’t make sense of it. I was angry, confused, upset, and found myself running through the normal gamut of emotions that arise when intense feelings aren’t reciprocated. First I was all “Stella got her groove back” thinking: fuck him. If he’s not sure about me, then I’ll just take all of my shit out of his apartment, dip out, and let him really feel what it’s like to not have my great, shining, happy, wonderful presence—nay, my “aura”—around…. And then, almost immediately after, I was feeling completely deflated and insecure, wondering what the hell it was about me that was so unwantable? Wondering how I could change myself to better suit what I was guessing he might want (ps NEVER do this) And while it’s so easy to adhere to well-intentioned (but often quite mislead) advice from friends who tell us to never give someone the time of day who won’t commit to us… it’s not really reasonable as a blanket statement. Every scenario is different. Uncertainty is woven into the very fabric of life. It is life to some degree. And being someone who tends to give more understanding than most, I felt that I had the emotional fortitude and resources to hold out and demonstrate that I would be “Still Here,” having his back until he came to a place of clarity (as long as he respected the boundaries laid out, of course). more