[Verse 1]
I don't wake up grateful every morning,
Sometimes I curse the air I'm breathing.
I count my debts like they're rosaries,
And pray to gods I don't believe in.
Tried the mirror mantras, tried the lies,
Smile like hell, but my soul’s dry.
Universe said, “Visualize.”
I said, “Bitch, I’m traumatized.”
[Pre-Chorus ]
But I still want more—
Not diamonds, just a damn open door.
A body that doesn't burn from the inside,
A bed that don’t echo goodbyes.
[Chorus ]
I want a better life, but I won’t pretend.
Not chanting dreams with fake-ass friends.
I want love that don’t leave scars,
Money that’s mine, not just from stars.
This ain't a prayer, it's a warning bell—
I’m not in heaven, but I ain’t in hell.
If fate won’t give, I’ll claw and steal—
But whatever comes…
It better be real.
[Verse 2 ]
Sick of wishing on 11:11
Like time owes me redemption.
Every mirror’s cracked with fear,
Still I breathe, still I’m here.
I want health without hiding pain,
Want joy that don’t feel insane.
I want quiet in my fucking head,
Not fake peace dressed in dread.
[Bridge ]
I don’t want miracles—I want momentum.
Don’t need the light—I need direction.
Take this wound, this rage, this fight,
Forge me a future that fits my bite.
[Chorus]
I want a better life, but I won’t pretend.
Not some sweet lie I manifest.
Give me truth, give me blood and steel,
If I gotta fight—then make it real.
[Outro]
I don’t need it now, I just need it true.
Not a dream…
Just something new.more