I always thought my friends and I would be together forever; I couldn't imagine life without them! I thought we'd somehow move into our own houses and be next door neighbors, and we'd still see each other regularly at church, or getting together to play video games, or going out to see a movie. We'd raise our families, and our kids would become friends too! But, it seems everyone has their own unique path in life, and those paths don't always go the same direction. As I got older, my friends seemed to move away one by one, whether for career endeavors, family reasons, or just because they had the opportunity to do so. And here I was, seemingly stuck in the same place. While there are certainly times I feel quite lonely, and miss the close friendships I had, there's been a lot of blessings in my life over the past several years. I've had a lot of opportunity to invest in myself, overcoming personal challenges, honing my craft, and becoming more and more prepared to pursue my dreams. I've also come to realize that while I might not have my childhood friends with me anymore, there are still many people in my life who love and support me. When I originally wrote this song, I had just recently discovered the band Between the Buried and Me, so this was just me trying to recreate their sound and style to better understand how to write music like that. When it came time to writing the lyrics, it was a bit challenging because the music starts off so triumphant, but later takes a dark turn and has something of a "tragic" ending. What could I write about that starts "happy" and ends "sad"? I thought about my friends moving away, and it seemed to be an appropriate topic for the tone of the music, expressing how we seemed inseparable in the beginning, but gradually divided over time. We're still friends; we still love each other, we just don't see each other much these days. It's kinda sad, but at least we have some joyful memories to look back on. more

I’m a cold mother fucker And I know I’m right Can you feel it comin in the air tonight I might look a little funny I’m sure feelin strange I’ll scream fuck it out loud But I’m not deranged All hopeful thoughts I left unsaid Can’t cut it out cause it’s in my head I can see your future And it’s lookin bleak Always talkin shit Cause you’re fuckin weak Yeah you’re fuckin weak But I won’t dwell on my violent crime Cause now is my time And I’ll be just fine Now is my time And I’m gonna shine Now is my time I’ll be just fine Now is my time My life’s sublime But I won’t give up on what’s mine Cause now is my time And I’m gonna shine Now is my time I’ll be just fine Now is my time I’m gonna shine Now is my time My life’s sublimemore