'Dejection' is the last song on my EP called "Alternate Reality" which will be released this Friday (16/4). more

This is about my old 12-year-old dog Yugi slowly dying and shutting down. He ended up needing to be put down a few months after I wrote this, just two days before Christmas 2019. Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4bcutq3mlg His back legs/hips got really bad as he got older. He had a hard time running, walking/ walking straight, or getting up from laying down. He started losing control of his bodily functions. He started pooping in the house. sometimes. Usually, it was pretty easy to clean up. I knew it was a sign of his old age. Eventually he started to pee a little bit when he tried to get up. For the last few months his back legs had gotten so bad that he had a hard time standing on the tile floor to eat his food (I literally had to hold his hips up so he could stand and eat.). I always said that once he couldn't control his bladder (completely), I knew it would be time to put him down. The day I left to go home for Christmas, he had peed his bed. On the ride home, I stopped so many times for him to pee, but he hardly did because he was in pain from walking/standing/getting in and out of the car. His mind was deteriorating as well. Once we got home to my parents', his back legs stopped working. He couldn't hardly move and he didn't really go potty. I put him down a few days later, devastated to be losing such a perfect dog. I still miss Yugi. You can see him in the video above. LYRICS: I don't like to take you down the stairs Your hesitation always leaves me scared Will this be the time you come crashing down I don't like to take you up the stairs I gotta stay one step behind and catch you all the time Whenever I try to support you You get scared You pull away And I don't know what else to say What's it feel like wishing you were dead just to get you out of my head The pain's too deep sometimes I been watching You been breathing heavy and it's getting irregular and I don't know what to do You're so heavy Shutting down and so heavy I remember at the lake I thought that would be a pretty good last day You had room to run around and I had room to think of tombs of you I'm so sad You're so heavy I'm so sad; so mad You're so heavy I'm not readymore

Every now and then I come up with an Ambient track, just because I love to create soothing soundscapes that make me feel like floating in space. This is one of them. If you like it, here is a pre-save link for you: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/donchipone/dark-starmore