<><><><><>><><><><><><><><><><><><>><><><> I know every crack above this bed Every warning buzzing in my head I’ve worn this body like a locked-up room One sealed window breathing in the gloom Found an old picture underneath the frame She had my eyes, she had my name Something living bright behind her smile I don’t remember being her in a while Read the chart Miss the heart Rate the pain Send me home Ohh Ohh I’ve been sick for a long time Watched whole summers die behind the blinds Take me somewhere I have never gone Where I don’t wake up already worn Don’t tell me where the highway goes Just drive until the dashboard glows I’ve been sick for far too long Take me somewhere I still belong Ohh Ohh They ask how I’m doing like they know Eyes on the chart while I disappear below Pulse and weight and date of birth Three black lines to measure what I’m worth The clinic moved my visit back again I split the dose to make it reach the end My mother says, “At least you look okay” I say, “I’m fine,” so she can end the day Make it last Watch it pass Stretch the week Too tired to speak Ohhh Start the car and kill the light Take the county road tonight Past the beds, past every chart Past the hands that missed my heart I don’t need heaven, I just need out Somewhere my blood forgets this house Somewhere morning doesn’t bruise Somewhere I still get to choose I’ve been sick for a long time This body serves a sentence every night Take me somewhere I have never gone Where I don’t wake up already worn Ohhh We reached the coast before first light Headlights drowning in the white I left my shoes beside the road Walked until the black tide rose I’ve been sick For far too long The headlights died Before the dawn Oh— Oh— No footprints left Where I walked in The sea kept moving Like I’d never been Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh Oh Oh more