This is about my real life. I had things happen to those close to me i lost a friend to a home invasion he was instantly killed and this lifestyle is what got him hurt. Im trying to change my ways but every step I take its like the hood life follows me even when I am trying to distants myself but I keep going regardless because I have a family I need to provide for. What I worry about most is not having anything to lose because when that happens its not going to be safe for anyone. I am a nice guy but when I lose everything I tend to lose my direction and people are always effected. To this day though I am clean I keep my hands clean I dont break the law but its just a faze until the next episode begins. Hopefully I make it through life with something I can cherish that will keep me on the right path. This is about my reality and how I over come that part of my life lets hope that this continues for many years to come because when that life comes back into my circle I will lose my way. Hope you enjoy my deepest thoughts.more