you said, “Girls like you burn out fast cheap cigarettes and a broken past” like I was just another phase you’d wash away in summer rain you only love when it hurts leave fingerprints on everyone first i still smell your smoke on my clothes still keep your lighter close you cut me down then held me still like hurting me gave you a thrill every word still echoes loud still hear your name when no one’s around maybe I should hate you now every kiss just dragged me down i’d come back bleeding if you asked me to you could wreck my life i’d still run back to you you said I act stuck at nineteen too drunk to know what love could mean like every scar across my arms only proved I self-destruct all your friends say I’m bad news like they never watched you use every broken part of me just to feed your sympathy i heard you found somebody new a cleaner girl to bleed right through but you still call me after two like addicts always do maybe I should hate you now you always drag me back somehow i let you pull me underneath then blame me for the way I bleed if I’m poison why’d you drink me dry? if I’m nothing why you still drive by? you said I’d disappear but you still scream my name you made me hate myself then told me I should take the blame i hate you for this now you tore my whole world inside out i still hear your voice at night still see your car at every light you were the worst thing I ever knew and I hope it fucking ruins you ruins you ruins you ruins you more