Today I'm not okay, but if you ask I'll say I'm fine I've learned the words to say, so no one reads my mind A quiet little lie, hidden in my smile Holding back the truth, just for a while I keep it all inside, every tear I hide I'm not okay, not okay, but I'll tell you that I am Put a smile on my face, do the best that I can I'm not okay, not okay, but I won't let it show If I fall apart tonight, you'll never know I laugh like nothing's wrong, like the world is standing still But every quiet song, reminds me how I feel I carry all this weight, so no one feels the pain Standing in the light, while drowning in the rain I keep it all inside, every tear I hide I'm not okay, not okay, but I'll tell you that I am Put a smile on my face, do the best that I can I'm not okay, not okay, but I won't let it show If I fall apart tonight, you'll never know I cry when I'm alone, when nobody can hear All the words I hide, all my silent tears In the mirror I confess, what I'm scared to say Behind the smiley face, I'm not okay I'm not okay, not okay, but I'm still holding on Maybe someday soon, this hurt will be gone source: https://lyricsondemand.com/hudson_blake/not_okay - Mastered by mixea.commore