Not all understand ptsd,trauma,adhd,mental health etc etc wanting to be with people you know love you and home is heaven not earth x Sat here contemplating ending it all Wondering if i will be missed at all Do I want to go into the light? Or do I want to stay sat here in the dark? Know this I held you through the good times more so through the bad times Held your storms like they were mine I’m sat here staring at the crack in the bathroom tile. Counting all the reasons why Breathing feels like climbing miles So If I disappear tonight Would the room still say my name Or just fall quiet Do I want to go into the light Or stay and fight If I fade Will anybody cry Or just turn out the sky I’m hanging by a question in my mind Do I go into the light Or stay and fight Phone on the floor No name to call, just names I haven’t called in years Typing out a last goodbye Backspacing through the fear Know this If I never learn to heal You were still the truest thing That ever felt like real If I sink beneath the tide Will the waves remember me Or just fall quiet Do I want to go into the light Or stay and fight If I fade Will anybody cry Or just turn out the sky I’m hanging by a question in my mind Do I go into the light Or stay and fight What if tomorrow never comes? Or it’s softer than tonight What if this sorrow Breaks open into life If I can’t hold on for me I’ll hold on for the ones who’d bleed Do I want to go into the light Or stay and fight If I fade Will anybody cry Or just turn out the sky I’m hanging by a thread But I’m alive So I won’t go into the light I’ll stay and fight Know this I loved you through the good times More through the bad times Watching you break and still choosing your side If I just vanished in the dark Would anyone feel the mark I leave? Would the silence feel too loud Or would they breathe Finally breathe? Do you wanna go into the light Or stay and fight Stay and fight? When the dark says it’s right It’s a liar in disguise If the hurt is a wave We’re still here We’re not erased So just hold on So just hold on tight I want you to stay and fight Maybe we’re cracked But the cracks let dawn break in If this is the end Let it be the end of giving in Do we wanna go into the light Or stay and fight Stay and fight? We’ve both been close to that line But we’re still breathing Still alive If the hurt is a wave We’ll rise up We won’t cave We’ll just hold on Hold on tight Together we’ll stay and fight Stay and fight Stay and fight Stay and fight more