Still pushing through this life I try to weigh it all equally And when I close my eyes I see the vividest memories Dear little me, I tried to be the best version I could be But sometimes I want to die And yes I always wonder if i’ve made a mess out of you Became the product of the petty little things you held on to I often question if your dream of fitting in will come true I’ve built so many walls you would have broken through Still pushing through this life But nothing comes to me easily Still hard to see both sides Theres good and bad then reality Dear future me, surprise, you’re feeling everything out You’re writing it out, you’re hiding around, doing your best to survive And yet I wonder if I’m inadvertently killing you Slowly becoming a regret your mind will always cling on to I hope you’re forward thinking, doing what you love just for you Don’t look back here you’ll fall, ignore me calling youmore

Hard to see it from both ends Fast to latch on to what you said When you hurt me, mentally, I went home Back to my mothers homeland Screamed, “I dont understand, Why is it always falling on me?” “Well, your shoulders are strong I understand it feels wrong But we needed reason to make the music touch you” Never thought of it that way Good to see it from both ends Slow to react to what you said When you hurt me, mentally, I go home Pretend im on a stage and I Feel almost everything and though, I don’t know what to say, I can feel a song coming more

homesick love letter to my hometown <3more