"My Apology” was birthed from one of the darkest seasons of my life. After suffering a miscarriage, I fell into a deep depression that shook my faith. I didn’t want to go to church, didn’t want to sing, and didn’t want to be around anyone. I felt like I had failed—not just as a woman, but as a Christian. My pastor often says, ‘It’s easy to praise God when life is good, but true faith is tested when life falls apart.’ And in that moment, I felt like I had failed that test. I couldn’t even bring myself to say, ‘Thank you, Jesus.’
This song became my way of pouring my heart out to God. It’s my apology—not because He needed one, but because I needed to say it. I needed to acknowledge the distance I felt, the pain I carried, and the struggle to believe through it all.
The beauty of “My Apology” is that it’s not just about me. It’s a song for anyone who’s ever felt distant from God, anyone who’s wrestled with guilt, grief, or disappointment. It’s an invitation for listeners to insert their own stories and find healing in the honesty of repentance and restoration.more