"She Smokes Amsterdam Tobacco" is a cinematic, dark indie rock track that follows the transformation of a fierce, independent woman navigating the high-stakes underworld of high society. Set against the atmospheric backdrop of midnight rain, neon lights, and the roaring energy of vintage Chicago, the song tracks her journey from disciplined preparation into the ruthless jaws of public fame. Riding in a pre-war black-and-white Rolls-Royce and shielded by an old-fashioned macintosh coat, she is a complex paradox: a "fearless Mogul" who has successfully built an empire, yet completely rejects the shallow, safe traps of the elite. To a world frozen in comfort and routine, she is an unpredictable force—a gambler and a scrambler who lives by a dangerous philosophical joke: that true awakening only happens when you step out on the ledge and risk everything. Ultimately, the track is an anthem of survival and self-preservation. While fame cuts like a bloody blade, she remains unbroken, true to her inner connection, smoking Amsterdam tobacco, listening to her own rock and roll, and caring about nothing but the depth of human souls. more

A track about facing the consequences of your choices as life's struggles come crashing down like a tidal wave. Knowing the risks but choosing to go ahead anyway, you find yourself drowning in the chaos, fighting to stay afloat as everything hits at once. Yet, even in the storm, you refuse to give up :) more

I wrote this song during times of darkness when tomorrows were mostly optional, when writing songs and playing them on my keyboard was one of the few things that kept me going. I posted this song last year as the piano piece it was written, but my guitarist Jürgen and me decided to record some of those songs together, and, if life allows us, play them live end of next year. Just guitar and voice. This is the first we finished. - This song is about how days often felt like. The song is long, quiet and deep, and doesn't sugarcoat. - "You'll Never Really Know" is for the ones who don’t have the words, whose pain echoes quietly behind closed doors. A voice for all who have ever fought their battles in silence. Those who whisper 'I tried' and never feel heard. It stands beside every unseen battle, every silenced heart, and every soul who survived in the dark. May it remind someone out there that their struggle matters, and they are not alone. - Perhaps, in today's fast-paced world, there is still someone out there who enjoys taking the time to listen to longer songs. To read the lyrics, to think about them, to reflect, to process. - And maybe it even touches a few hearts, or maybe someone might see themselves in the lyrics. - It will be released end of November. - With love Alyana - Lyrics: - Dawn slips through the curtains, I barely feel the light Heavy as the silence I carry through the night Sheets become an anchor I can't break away Promises I made myself all fade into gray Another list of"shoulds" I watch pile up in vain The weight of expectation pressing down like rain Every morning's mountain feels higher than before And I'm lost inside a darkness that no one can explore - Shadows in the corners whisper every name I've missed Echoes of frustration lingering like a mist I reach for silver linings, they turn to smoke and hide My hands are always empty, my hope just set aside With every step, it's harder to prove the world is wrong Their anger only tells me that I don't belong All my strength dissolves beneath the things they say I'm sinking in this silence, don't know how to get away - How to tell you that I tried when my trying goes unseen When the battles in my mind keep shattering my dreams You see undone dishes but not the war inside my head You scold me for my stillness when I can't get out of bed You call me good for nothing as I slowly disappear But every day's a struggle just to face another year My worth erodes with every word you throw and cast aside If you only knew the truth How to tell you that I tried - I'm learning how to fake it, to smile and play along But every hollow gesture only shows that something's wrong I wish that I could show you the pain beneath my skin To make you understand why it's so hard to begin Your voices fill the hallway, my courage slips away There's safety in this darkness where no one asks me to stay Every little failure feels carved into my bones And loneliness surrounds me even when I'm not alone - You measure love with checklists and answers on display But hearts aren't built from perfect, we're fragile in our way I see your disappointment reflected in your eyes Like storm clouds always gathering, never clear blue skies For every step I stumble, there's a thousand more regrets You tell me to be stronger, but forgive what you forget That silence isn't laziness, it's sorrow left unspoken A spirit quietly pleading, forever nearly broken - How to tell you that I tried when my trying goes unseen When the battles in my mind keep shattering my dreams You see undone dishes but not the war inside my head You scold me for my stillness when I can't get out of bed You call me good for nothing as I slowly disappear But every day's a struggle just to face another year My worth erodes with every word you throw and cast aside If you only knew the truth How to tell you that I tried - Every quiet morning, there's a battle waged anew Invisible and endless, if only you could view All the silent courage it takes just to survive If you could hear me whisper, believe me yes I tried - How to tell you that I tried when my trying goes unseen When the battles in my mind keep shattering my dreams You see undone dishes but not the war inside my head You scold me for my stillness when I can't get out of bed You call me good for nothing as I slowly disappear But every day's a struggle just to face another year My worth erodes with every word you throw and cast aside If you only knew the truth How to tell you that I tried - So if someday there is silence where my laughter used to be Remember all these quiet fights nobody else could see Not every war is visible, not every bruise will show How to tell you that I tried You'll never really knowmore