"A slow unraveling of memory and meaning — this track lives in the space between holding on and finally letting go."more

This song is basically a raw, heavy vent about feeling completely overwhelmed and trapped by your own mind. It feels like that moment when life gets so intense that even just taking a breath feels like a massive chore. Were tapping into that deep, dark headspace where you're struggling with bad thoughts, emotional pain or a relationship that is draining the life out of you. Instead of just singing a sad song, we use the idea of "breathing" as a metaphor for just trying to survive and keep your head above water when you feel like you're drowning in stress. It is dark, it is honest and it is for anyone who has ever felt suffocated by their own feelings. i still feel you in my chest when i breathe even though you left, you never really leave ghost in my phone, name in my dreams why does loving you still feel like a disease? why does pain like this still sound like peace? cold nights, heart iced love notes in the ashtray, no lights you were a melody, soft+spoken felony tore me apart with your therapy and i lied when i said i'm better wrote your name in a suicide letter she was heaven in the shape of a weapon i was prayin' for death by affection "you ever miss someone who ruined you the best?" i still feel you in my chest when i breathe even though you left, you never really leave ghost in my phone, name in my dreams why does loving you still feel like a disease? why does pain like this still sound like peace? love scars, new tats hate myself and i'm used to that lips red, eyes black tryna find peace in a panic attack you don't text but you haunt my feed every new pic rips out a piece how can silence be so loud when you used to scream just to drown me out? whispers from in the back, i still feel— i still feel you in my chest when i breathe even though you left, dreams nev—really leave ghost in my phone, name in my dreams why does loving you still feel like a disease? why does pain like this still sound like peace? - Mastered by mixea.commore