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trigger warning: song about IPSV ⬇️ LYRICS and STORY⬇️ -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This is a song I wrote about IPSV. The worst kind of hurt, is the hurt brought to you by a loved one. Someone you trust and someone you should feel safe with. After a relationship of almost 5 years. My now ex boyfriend decided not to take no for an answer when I said I didn't want to be intimate. I woke up in the middle of the night. I was hurting and didn't understand why or what happened until it dawned on me. I confronted him about it and he confessed to taking advantage of me in my sleep. After unnecessary comments like "then why didn't you just wake up and say no" I've kept this song to myself for a year but if anyone went through the same thing and this song can let them know they're not alone. I recorded his confession and included parts of the conversation in this song. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- lyrics simpel whispers don't make sense they're simply cutting through my head silence all I never head when will this end - solidify my sadness the tears now let it sink in it's fear that I am thinking oh lord forgive me for I'm sinning - come to me now I am wiping my eyes out so baby come to me now together we're drowning a little bit happier than alone - alone in misery but you told me I'd be free soon I'm still waiting for a savior that won't come to save me no - I push you off of me I'm confused cause I look up and you're not near me when will the intrusive thoughts that nearly killed every bit of life lust that I used to feel leave - In Dutch: "I only did it once", "it wasn't just once", "I'm sorry" - please forgive me I have sinned I felt pain but had to be sure was awake when he started to fondle me, said no before though - turned away he turned me back made sure my eyes were close but felt him going inside without permission tell me do the things I told you make me promiscuous or - I am right for wanting to make sure I was aware of what he did cause otherwise if he deflected confrontations I'd be neglected and stuck in that mess till forever and ever so yeah - I was awake during the second time not the first it doesn't make it right what he did, I should be heard but I can't ruin his life, what about his next girl wonder how many times he got away being a monster - you know who you are, karma's gonna get you in Dutch: "no sweetie please I don't want to lose you, I can't lose you"more