“It” is the despair, the anxiety, the weight — the whole package. Depression often comes and goes, sometimes sparing you brief moments of calm, ignorance, or even peace. But not for long. Avoidance and inactivity only feed it (guilty).
One moment you feel fine, acting mechanically, trying to stay positive.
The next, a thought slips in and shatters everything.
Many of these waves are just questions:
“Why am I still like this?”
“Why can’t I get over it?”
“Why did I say/do that?”
And then guilt hits from the other side: “Look at what others go through — and you dare to complain?”
And down the spiral we go.
Musically, this is me blending the genres I love — post-metal, stoner, ambient, and whatever else leaked through. A storm of influences, fitting the theme. - Mastered by mixea.commore