This is my take on a song originally written by Romy. . What caught me wasn't really the astrology. It was the uncertainty behind it: knowing you matter deeply to someone, but having no idea what kind of place you hold in their life. . "Cancer" can mean something that grows inside you and destroys you. But it can also mean home, protection, attachment, somewhere you feel safe enough to return to. . Romy wrote that ambiguity from her own perspective. I wanted to keep her words but start again from scratch musically, building a different melody and finding my own way of feeling them. . Same words. Same question. Different melody. Different person asking it. . Maybe a song can become something else simply by changing the voice that carries its words. . ============================ . [VERSE] When you roar, I blush in silence Like thunder shaking something soft in me I try to stay fair, stay balanced That's the Libra holding symmetry But I can't help being sharp and deep That Scorpio edge under my skin I don't do shallow, I don't do easy I feel the truth before it begins . [PRE CHORUS] And you make me wonder what I am to you An affection, a home, a storm passing through . [CHORUS] Because I know I'm your Cancer somehow I just don't know what that means right now Am I the one who devours The one who brings a sickness, something malignant inside Or am I the shelter, the steady hours The warmth that keeps you safe at night I don't want to be the ache I don't want to be the wound I want to be the harbor If you ever choose to come home soon . [VERSE] We move like flame and hesitation Affection dressed as something more A doorway love, an unnamed connection Always close, never sure You pull away, I hold the line Not chasing, just staying true I don't need to own your heart I just want it safe with you . [PRE CHORUS] And maybe this is what mirrors do They show what's hidden, not what's new . [CHORUS] Because I know I'm your Cancer somehow I just don't know what that means right now Am I the one who devours The one who turns desire into pain, like a disease you can't explain Or am I the refuge after the hours The calm that doesn't ask you to explain I don't want to be the ache I don't want to be the wound I want to be the harbor If you ever choose to come home soon . [BRIDGE] Libra in my hands, Scorpio in my blood Trying to love with precision But Cancer is the heart, the home, the flood The quiet decision And if I've ever scared you It was never to destroy It was only love too honest Trying to become a place of joy . [CHORUS] Because I know I'm your Cancer somehow And I want it to mean this now Not the illness, not the hunger Not the bite that leaves a scar But the home, the steady cover The light that stays where you are I don't want to be the ache I don't want to be the wound I want to be the harbor If you ever… ever come home soon . [OUTRO] When you roar, I blush… And I still choose warmth over ruinmore