“mess up" is a blend of pop, folk, electronic, and punk that deals with themes of depression, self-hatred, isolation, and acceptance. (This track was 100% single-handedly written, composed, produced, performed, mixed, and mastered by me) Lyrics - I wake up kind of sleepy and I want to go back My eyes are kind of gloomy and I hate these bags My mother says I should go out more Yet she doesn't fully trust me but how could she? I mess up all the time I've lost count and I've told so many lies To myself and I am such a waste of a life Oh, forget about it But when I close my eyes I'll just fall asleep In a state of constant conflict, I am certain I'm a burden I watch my head as my heart prepares annihilation Bleeding and crawling On the floor I just keep calling but I keep getting ignored But I will take it anyway I mess up all the time I've lost count and I've told so many lies To myself and I am such a waste of a life Oh, forget about it But when I close my eyes I'll just fall asleepmore