A song to my fiance who fights canser. When you finally got the help you needed White coats, kind eyes, hands that cared We all believed that this was the moment That hope was more than just a prayer They said the chemo might kill the darkness And if it didn’t, there were more roads to try You even signed up for a study With one clear goal: to survive But after the surgery, after the start Everything fell apart I’m so afraid to wake up and you’re gone Afraid there’s something I forgot to say I know I could’ve done better, been stronger somehow And it keeps me awake every night right now Yeah, I’m so afraid to wake up and you’re gone Now you’re back home after nine long weeks Wires and bandages, nurses every day From where I stand, your world keeps spinning Around family, pain, and finding a way Most people would’ve given up by now But not you, not once, not ever You’re stronger than I ever knew You’re a fighter, through and through I’m so afraid to wake up and you’re gone Afraid of the words I should’ve said all along I know I could’ve done better, been stronger somehow And it keeps me awake every night right now Yeah, I’m so afraid to wake up and you’re gone They say your body’s fighting itself Drowning in something they can’t explain They can’t give you the treatment to stay If they don’t find the source of this pain Worst case, they said it plain We won’t see Christmas together again We broke down, cried together there But somehow you were the one holding me You find your strength in God and His promises You trust His plan, whatever it may be I wish I had the faith you carry If the worst comes true, you’re certain we’ll meet again I’m so afraid… but I’m still here Holding on through the doubt and fear I’m so afraid to wake up and you’re gone But I’ll stay by your side, no matter how long I’m here for you every step of the way I’m not going anywhere, I’m here to stay Yeah, I’m so afraid to wake up and you’re gone I love you, my Lady M All the way, to the end more