Ï'm smashing things just to do something.."is the opening line and how true it is. 2026 began with a cancer diagnosis, and whilst going through that time of surgery and treatment I received a 2nd diagnosis.. in my spine. Änd I can't walk on, even for you" refers to losing the ability to walk in a matter of months. Everything that was HAPPENING to me, was happening at the same time progressing to the point of not being able to walk meant spinal surgery was my only option if I wanted to try and regain what I was losing. Released today, 22 days after spinal surgery. I've got a long way to go, and every line in this song is true. more