I remember my boyfriend was playing guitar to calm me down after I'd gotten into a fight with my family. I had the lyrics pop into my head, "I've no motivation to think on brighter things. In fact I think I've stopped believing in eternity"... it was one of the scariest realizations of my life - not only because I was admitting to myself that my beliefs weren't aligned with my religious upbringing anymore, but also because I knew who I was becoming would ostracize me from everyone I loved.more