I wrote this song when my mom relapsed with alcohol abuse. It felt like the good moments had been a dream and I just woke up. It's the song I'm the proudest of. Acapella, harmonies. I poured all my pain into it.
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Lyrics:
what if I'm right
and we were a lie all along
cause you knew my feelings
but went and chose booze over it all
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what if I'm worthy of the love
that you neglected me
when I was just a little kid
cause you didn't have time for me
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don't have the right to take away
my potential, my mental state
just because you couldn't keep control
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oh I'm gonna be honest
if history repeats itself
I'm not sure I can help you
I'm not equipped to deal with this
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I don't know how I'll react
when our past hits chapter 2
cause that would mean that everything we've been trough
wasn't true
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boy, I'm trying to slip my mind
but it just keeps catching up with me
and breathing is a have-to-do
cause it's just getting heavier for me
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choir: tired
swimming against all the odds
I'm drowning, it's never enough
I'm thinking that the way I'm treating me
is not good
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oh I'm gonna be honest
if history repeats itself
I'm not sure I can help you
I'm not equipped to deal with this
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I don't know how I'll react
when our past hits chapter 2
cause that would mean that everything we've been trough
wasn't true
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choir: true
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swimming against all the odds
I'm drowning, it's never enough
I'm thinking that the way I'm treating me
is not good at all
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likely to be sinking down
I try to turn it all around
I'm facing a choice between my life or yours
I'm going overboard
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I'm gonna be honest
if history repeats itself
I'm not sure I can help you
I'm not equipped to deal with this
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I don't know how I'll react
when our past hits chapter 2
cause that would mean that everything we've been trough
wasn't truemore