I wrote this song when my mom relapsed with alcohol abuse. It felt like the good moments had been a dream and I just woke up. It's the song I'm the proudest of. Acapella, harmonies. I poured all my pain into it. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lyrics: what if I'm right and we were a lie all along cause you knew my feelings but went and chose booze over it all - what if I'm worthy of the love that you neglected me when I was just a little kid cause you didn't have time for me - don't have the right to take away my potential, my mental state just because you couldn't keep control - oh I'm gonna be honest if history repeats itself I'm not sure I can help you I'm not equipped to deal with this - I don't know how I'll react when our past hits chapter 2 cause that would mean that everything we've been trough wasn't true - boy, I'm trying to slip my mind but it just keeps catching up with me and breathing is a have-to-do cause it's just getting heavier for me - choir: tired swimming against all the odds I'm drowning, it's never enough I'm thinking that the way I'm treating me is not good - oh I'm gonna be honest if history repeats itself I'm not sure I can help you I'm not equipped to deal with this - I don't know how I'll react when our past hits chapter 2 cause that would mean that everything we've been trough wasn't true - choir: true - swimming against all the odds I'm drowning, it's never enough I'm thinking that the way I'm treating me is not good at all - likely to be sinking down I try to turn it all around I'm facing a choice between my life or yours I'm going overboard - I'm gonna be honest if history repeats itself I'm not sure I can help you I'm not equipped to deal with this - I don't know how I'll react when our past hits chapter 2 cause that would mean that everything we've been trough wasn't truemore